When you love someone, you want to be close to her. And you know she wants to be close to you. So it hurts tremendously when you are the one who scares her. And that’s exactly what happens. The girl you love cringes when you take off her pants. She wants you inside her, but at the same time she is terrified of what she will remember and feel. So you spend countless nights with her head in your lap, telling her how much you love her and holding her when she wakes up from bad dreams.
You are 100% supportive of everything she is going through. In your mind, you understand that she loves you and wants you completely. But it still hurts you to see her hurt. And it really hurts that there is nothing you can do to be closer to her without making her feel more pain.